tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post4596088711991030524..comments2023-09-28T03:46:36.855-05:00Comments on Mustard Seed Faith: How I spent the day...Daniellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14837677710305353947noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post-80210080394134099192007-10-14T10:36:00.000-05:002007-10-14T10:36:00.000-05:00well done on your movie!well done on your movie!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post-4902547319687602282007-10-10T10:34:00.000-05:002007-10-10T10:34:00.000-05:00Dear Danielle: Thank you so much for your encourag...Dear Danielle:<BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/>Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I am so sorry you lost your Mom and I am so sorry for the pain you are experiencing. My prayers are with you.<BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/>I have attached another story that I hope will bring you comfort in some mysterious way. This story is about a lady named Kim who lost her husband and son in a car accident earlier this year.<BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/>Pastor Jerry Wells<BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/>It’s been 4 months and 17 days since the accident. I overcame a huge fear of mine today. I went to the graves for the first time today since the funeral. Shortly after the funeral I had no desire to go. I feared it. I just couldn’t bring myself to accept that my loved ones were in the ground at Resthaven Cemetery. I chose however to always try to make myself think they’re with God in his loving arms. I wasn’t always successful but that’s what I tried to do. It was a huge fear to me. I’ve thought about it for months. Although my X-therapist told me not to go for the first time alone, I chose to go alone!! I wanted to be alone with my husband and my son. I wanted to talk with them and sit with them and I did. I didn’t want to put on any front for anyone, so I had to be alone. I sat with them and raked the ground all smooth and talked to them and prayed really hard that God had given them comfort, peace, happiness and that he was taking good care of them. I felt God’s presence there. I didn’t feel alone. I just felt like laying on the ground beside them. I could have stayed all day. Although it was very draining and exhausting crying my heart out, it was healing and I can’t wait to go back. It was a huge obstacle for me. I felt their presence there. Now my next step is picking out a head stone. Yes, I haven’t done that either. We were waiting until I was ready. I also want to take my boys soon. Jace has a birthday cake he colored for Justin that he never got to give him for his birthday because he didn’t make it to his birthday. He wants to take it to the grave for Justin. I think it might be healing for him too. I don’t know about Josh. He probably won’t want to go. We’ll see.<BR/><BR/>I hear that my emails are helping people and my demeanor. I had a friend come up to me that had lost her mom from breast cancer. She’s having a really hard time coping. She told me that she sees me around school and town and that if I can get out of bed and face the day, then she can too. I told her that it’s God that gets me out of bed every day. Sometimes it’s hard to get up. My bed is my safe place. When I’m asleep, things don’t hurt so bad. It’s kinda soothing in bed. It’s hard to explain. I can understand why some people can’t get up at all. I get up for my boys. My boys and God give me strength. <BR/><BR/>Don’t assume that you have all the time in the world to live for God. <BR/><BR/>Ask yourself these questions:<BR/><BR/>How will people feel when you die?<BR/><BR/>Will they be sad?<BR/><BR/>Will they miss you?<BR/><BR/>Did it matter that you lived?<BR/><BR/>Do you want to be remembered by your kindness?<BR/><BR/>Your compassion?<BR/><BR/>Your generosity of time?<BR/><BR/>The Testimony you freely shared to bring others to Christ?<BR/><BR/>This Update is my testimony. I’m here to tell you that it is God, not me, that keep me going every day. It’s his strength! Not mine. God has put angels on earth all around me to help me. My mom and dad are two of my biggest angels on earth. My friends who take care of me and really hurt for me and are there for me. Then there are those two precious angels in heaven who watch over the boys and I. <BR/><BR/>Right after the accident, all of Jace’s drawings had rain in them. If it was a house, it was raining, a car, it was raining. I took that as a sign of sadness. Then he started drawing houses with everyone’s bedrooms in it. Everyone was in their bedroom. Him and Justin were in their bedroom in one bed, Josh was in his room, and me and Daddy were in our room. He drew that for awhile as if nothing ever changed. Also, at church one day, they had to list three people they were going to be kind to this week. Jace listed two friends and his daddy. I don’t understand. Maybe that’s his way of coping to pretend they’re still there. Maybe it soothes the pain for him. I’m so glad he remembers them so much though. Now, I’m happy to report that his drawings have a lot of snow and sunshine in them. I take that as a good sign.<BR/><BR/>Speaking of signs, when I was at the graves today, I was sitting on the ground beside my boys and a bunny scampered up to me. It was amazing. I was still and just watched him. I took that as a sign. Jace and I watch for signs often. One night there was an amazing sunset. Jace and I were taking the trash up to the curb when we saw it. We sat down at the top of our driveway and looked at it. The moon was orange and the clouds and sky were a beautiful purplish blue color. Jace said, “do you think daddy and Justin are watching us now”? I said, “yes I do”. He always remembers his daddy and bubba. After I put the boys to bed and they were asleep, I went back up to the top of the driveway and sat and continued to watch the sky. (I took my great dane with me for safety) I just sat there and talked to God, Michael and Justin. <BR/><BR/>Live so that you won’t need tomorrow to correct the mistakes of today.<BR/><BR/>Things that once seemed of great importance no longer pull me as they once did. I don’t have to have the latest fashion in clothes or cars. Many things that seemed extremely important before, seem irrelevant now. <BR/><BR/>Life won’t ever be perfect…. That’s reserved for heaven.<BR/><BR/>I had no idea this update would turn into a witness for Christ. I just first started it with family and close friends because when people called to check on me, I was usually too upset to talk on the phone. Thus the Tiderman Updates. I got so much positive feedback, that I kept doing it and my email list has grown and grown. I get a lot of this information from books I read, including the Bible of course. In return, my letters have been very therapeutic for me too. While I see my weaknesses- what I couldn’t do- others see my strengths. <BR/><BR/>We struggle through our pain to survive. During our worst times, our immediate goal is to make it. The power of the witness comes later. We have no idea how our lives touch others. So we must take everything, good or bad, and use it for his Glory. <BR/><BR/>I guess I’ll end for now. I never intend for these to be so long.<BR/><BR/>Blessings to all,<BR/><BR/>Kim Tiderman<BR/><BR/>-- <BR/><BR/><BR/>--------------------------------------------------------------------------------<BR/><BR/>No viruses found in outgoing message<BR/>Scanned by iolo AntiVirus? 1.1.13.1<BR/>http://www.iolo.com <BR/><BR/><BR/>--------------------------------------------------------------------------------<BR/><BR/>No viruses found in outgoing message<BR/>Scanned by iolo AntiVirus® 1.1.13.1<BR/>http://www.iolo.com<BR/><BR/><BR/>--------------------------------------------------------------------------------<BR/><BR/>From: Danielle [mailto:noreply-comment@blogger.com] <BR/>Sent: Monday, October 08, 2007 8:03 PM<BR/>To: jerrywells@westernhillschurch.com<BR/>Subject: [Debbie Wells Family Updates] New comment on This Part Of The Journey-Crying Out.<BR/><BR/> <BR/><BR/>Danielle has left a new comment on your post "This Part Of The Journey-Crying Out": <BR/><BR/>Mr. Wells,<BR/><BR/>I feel like I am going through the exact thing you talked about. Everything you wrote, is how I feel. I've never seen someone be So exact about it. Thank you, for sharing that. <BR/><BR/>I've wondered many times, if the pain would ever leave, will I ever feel like a complete person? Will I ever stop missing my Mom, I just wanted the hurt to go away. It hurts so bad. And I can see, you are hurting too. I have been so blessed by the sermon notes I am getting that you have wrote. Thank you for everything, encouragement you have given me, without even knowing. Praise the Lord! <BR/><BR/>About your daughter going to the grave site. That made me think a lot. My Mom has been gone for 9 months now, and I have not been able to visit the grave. I'm afraid it will be way too hard. I am not sure I am ready for it. Maybe I should reconsider though? <BR/><BR/>Thank you, <BR/><BR/>Publish this comment. <BR/><BR/>Reject this comment. <BR/><BR/>Moderate comments for this blog. <BR/><BR/>Posted by Danielle to Debbie Wells Family Updates at 8:03 PMInstructions for Giving for Debbiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08382978387404015272noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post-63797274269092280952007-10-06T12:58:00.000-05:002007-10-06T12:58:00.000-05:00Thank you for the comments... "A fellow struggler"...Thank you for the comments... "A fellow struggler", Thank you for sharing that with me. So, the pain really never leaves, I assume.Daniellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14837677710305353947noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post-91707963881857070492007-10-06T09:14:00.000-05:002007-10-06T09:14:00.000-05:00I lost my dad 18 years ago this month to brain can...I lost my dad 18 years ago this month to brain cancer. I wept while reading your blog because it brought back so many memories. I still miss him so very much, but the good memories get me through the days when I think I can't bear it any longer. It doens't hurt any less. I share your sorrow and loss and I know that God will strengthen you. I have never me you, but I love you. <BR/><BR/>A fellow strugglerAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34587382.post-74699935762209179882007-10-03T20:36:00.000-05:002007-10-03T20:36:00.000-05:00Hi Danielle,No, your post wasn't boring. Thank you...Hi Danielle,<BR/>No, your post wasn't boring. Thank you for sharing the pictures and about the day. <BR/><BR/>It was just great meeting you last month! Speaking of birthdays, you and Ryan have the same birthdates, so yours will be very easy for me to remember! :-) <BR/>Love,<BR/>KristenKristenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16153002932289887603noreply@blogger.com