Saturday, August 07, 2010

It's late

....And I'm REALLY missing my Mom. :( This whole day has been kind of ummm bad for me! My fault though, I've just been very short with everyone and rather rude to those I love most. :( Tonight we went to a Relay For Life benefit thing and we were just part of the volleyball tournament...anyway, as I walked around the track and read all the names of local people who have died from cancer, I just couldn't get my Mom off my mind. :( Then on the way home I heard a song that my friend Mandy sang that was written for my Mom, and then after that another song that was at my Mom's funeral. Anyway...it's just been rough. I miss her SOO much! ;( As the wedding is getting closer and closer (3 weeks away) I'm wanting her here even more. With all this wedding planning it's like this HUGE part of my life is missing and it shows in all I do I feel like. How I would have loved to plan this wedding with her help, and have her there at the shower on Sunday, and her there to be escorted down the aisle at the wedding and to witness me marrying the love of my life, Aaron.

All the wishing in the world won't change that though. So I better just pray and let God fill that missing part...I'm trying, really I am, just seems about impossible. Still everytime I miss her like this..it hurts so bad, like someone is stabbing me. Emotional pain is worse than physical I think....

Please just pray for me...and for Aaron and me as we seek to keep the Lord first in everything, but as the wedding draws near, small details seem to get in the way and distract my focus.

Thanks!! Goodnight!

5 comments:

sage said...

(((HUGS)))

Praying for you, Danny-girl. <3 <3 <3

Coach Eliya said...

I am praying for you!

"Emotional pain is worse than physical I think..."
I think that is sooo true! At least most emotional pain is worse than a lot of physical pain.

Here is a verse that recently helped me through some very hard times:
II Corinthians 4:15-18
For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God
For which cause we faint not: but though our outward man perish, yet our inward man is renewed day by day.
For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory
While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there girl! I can't imagine how hard it is having her gone through all these exciting changes in your life, but I know she would be sooo happy for you. Even though she isn't here, you can involve her as much as you can in everything because the memory of her will never die. Even though no one could ever replace her, I hope I and those closest to you can somewhat be to you what she was and support you the way she would have. However God wants to be the first to fill that void. :) Love you girl!
Danyelle

Anonymous said...

wow! You probably do not rember me from the ball but I was the one who asked you of you ahd seen the Burns movie and then e-maield you pictures of the blog. I saw you at Audsras wedding. The pictures of both Thrower girsl weddigns were great! Have a wonderful wedding. V. B

Anonymous said...

Just saw the wedding post on your addopted famlies blog. God bless you!