About a week or so ago, I was vacuuming my room, it was a mess since I had been stripping wallpaper. Anyway, as I was vacuuming there was lots of paper stuck to the floor and I needed to get it up. It sounds silly, but I simply asked God, "Please Lord, help me get this up...I need it all up!" Then only a few seconds later, I noticed that the thing I wanted to suck up in the vacuum had something sharp besides it that I shouldn't have vacuumed up. So, although I prayed to God that I would get this pile up, he knew what was better. He knew I didn't want to get it all up.
I wonder if this is how it is with my Mom's death. I prayed so much for my Mom to be healed, with more faith than ever. It seemed right for her to be here with me...more time on this earth. But maybe the Lord knows that it's not best...like the sharp object...My Mom needed to go to heaven and eventually I will understand. With my first story it was so easy to understand that and see it, but with my Mom it isn't. And probably for all of you, it seems easy, your thinking..."How could she not see that it's for the good." And yes, I know it is, because he tells us in Romans that all things work together for the good for those who love him and are called according to His purpose...so, I do know this, but understanding is something entirely different.
I'm sorry if I bored you with my little story...and I know the first incident sounds so minor, but it had to happen, so God could show me. I need to trust him no matter what. If I pray for something and it doesn't happen my way, there is a reason, He has a better way!
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Dear Danielle,
I have just recently come across your blog. My heart goes out to in this very difficult time in your life. Please know that I will be praying for you.
In Christ,
Megan Danielle :) Truitt
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