"Homesick"

Well, I know I told you I would update, about how my visit went to the graveyard. Well, I didnt do it. I couldnt. After having two rough nights in a row. Mainly just missing my Mom, but also for some other reasons, I just wasnt sure I could handle it when Sunday came around. I know I shouldnt have this fear, but I do. I'm truly afriad to go back, just afraid to how I will react. The Hunt family said that they would take me sometime, and as soon as this coming Sunday. I am not sure I will be ready by then either, but I will see.

Well, today on my way to work I heard this song. I've heard it many times, but never thought about the lyrics or even cared for the song much at all. Today though, I listened very closely to the words, and this just seems to explain sort of, what is going on with me.

HOMESICK

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now