"I Will Not Doubt"

Wow...that's so easy to say, but to do is a completely different thing. I find myself SO much doubting if things will ever work out for me. If my life will ever be normal again, or something that is desirable by God. And then a friend sent me this poem written by Annie Johnson Flint. This poem is what has been on my heart it seems like...

I will not doubt, though all my ships at sea

Come drifting home with broken masts and sails;

I will believe the Hand that never fails,

From seeming evil works to good for me.

And thought I weep because those sails are tattered,

Still will I cry, while my best hopes lie shattered,

"I trust in Thee."

I will not doubt, though all my prayers return

Unanswered from the still white realm above;

I will believe it is an all-wise Love

That has refused these things for which I yearn.

And though I cannot keep from grieving,

Yet the pure passion of my fixed believing,

Undimmed will burn.

I will not doubt, though sorrows fall like rain,

And troubles swarm like bees about a hive.

I will believe the heights for which I strive

Are only reached by anguish and by pain;

And though I groan and writhe beneath my crosses,

Yet will I see through my severest losses

The greater gain.

I will not doubt. Well anchored is this faith,

Like some staunch ship, my soul braves every gale;

So strong its courage that it will not fail

To face the mighty unknown sea of death.

Oh, may I cry, though body leaves the spirit,

"I do not doubt," so listening worlds may hear it,

With my last breath.