My Princess Party!

I can't begin to tell you what an amazing day I had yesterday! :) My family definitely gave me the "royal" treatment! :) On Monday they made me go to bed by 11:00 telling me that even princesses have bedtimes! ;) I had no idea they were going to stay up and DECORATE! :) Tuesday morning was perfect though. They had me close my eyes as I came down the stairs to find the prettiest dining room ever! :) They had used pink sheer fabric around the windows and doors with white lights in it to make a very "pretty" soft look to it.

There were flower petals all over the floor and heart swirly things from the ceiling fan. Floating candles in a clear bowl with pink water and sparkley confetti stuff on the table! Just PERFECT! Mom did an amazing job sewing all the dresses and outfits for the boys! She really outdid herself on this! I am definitely not worth all that she did for me to make my day extra special! We had a fun time getting ready for the party and then around 1:30 or so we started it! :)

(The head piece is NOT part of the outfit!)

(Honored guest...Esau...lol)

(Dad and Me)

(The girls with Dad)

Mom with the help of Gabrielle and Jess I think made a delicious mexican meal! (my favorite!) Dad had to leave quick after eating for work so we did gifts real quick right there! :) Some were uh...umm...quite embarrassing! (Some pics I just CANT post) They were funny though, and well...I think it was JAMIE'S idea! :D My family got me very nice things though and one in particular was a scrapbook for the party. Mom got all different stickers and things for it! So we got quite a few pictures to fill the book! :) Oh, and Mom made me a shirt! I thought she had bought it cause it looked SO good, but she didnt! It's perfect though! ;)(Can anyone guess who I got this from?..JESS AND JAMIE)

(the gift....ahh!)

After gifts we had a "funny" time dancing! :D None of us really know what we are doing when it comes to that, but we tried anyway! :D Christian was somewhat willing to learn but Jordan just liked to twirl me around as fast as he could and get me SO dizzy! Mom was even getting into it! ;)

(Mom, Me and Gabrielle)

So after dancing we had cake, oooooh So good! Mom made a heart shaped cake but it was chocolate with reeses peanut butter cups in it!!! DELICIOUS!!! :)


After eating we took some cake to our neighbors, Dale and Addie. Addie is very sick but I had promised her that we'd go over in our outfits to show her. I'm not even sure she remembered me, but she definitely knows Mom, so it was a treat I think for her to see everyone so dressed up...or those who STAYED in their outfits! :P We had decided that it'd only be fitting to watch a princess movie that night so ALL dressed up we went to the movie store in town to pick out one! :D We got quite the looks but the girl there was really nice to us, maybe she thought we were royalty! Jordan was too embarrassed of us though, so he stayed in the van. :D

(This was at night...it looked SO pretty!)

When we got home I changed out of my dress and got to do what I love most, well almost most...RIDING! :) Jordan took Gabrielle and I riding for a couple hours. I'm seriously thinking it's my new favorite thing to do! Can't even describe how much I love galloping through the farmers field, seems like the whole world is disappearing and its just me and my horse! :) LOVE IT! :)

Anyway....on to the party! :) We finished the night by watching "Princess Protection Program" Surprisingly it was pretty good! :) If my family reads this...Thanks SO much for the wonderful birthday! :) And for treating me like a princess! :) Love you all!(This is Mom's great grandma's necklace that she let me wear)

August 14th...

This is one date that I hate very much. This was the date that marked the beginning of my changed life. Never again on this earth would my Mom live with NO cancer and who would have known that only 5 short months later she wouldn't even be with me any longer.

I'm trying really hard to not dwell on all of this because it seems foolish. My Mom is in Heaven and I have a wonderful loving family here with me, why be sad? But it doesn't work...I still get sad, I still miss her a LOT, and there are still even parts of me that long for her to be back. Just to be with her one more time.

I went back and reread the blog post I did last year at this time and it seems crazy to me even how much life has changed in this one year. The past 6 months life has been incredible. I love it! I have that same joy that I had when my Mom was alive. Okay, maybe not exactly the same because that hole is still somewhat there. How could it ever fully go away, but my heart HAS been restored to an extent and I'm so thankful to God that He has blessed me with some family that does love me unconditionally. It's like my Mom can't be here for me, but God's allowed someone else to come and fill that spot and I know my Mom would be so happy.

If any of you are interested in reading the other blog post I'll post the link to where I blogged at. It explains more of what I went through on this day. The pain and heartache and why I hate the 14th of August so much. Old blog post

Please be praying for me that I can look to the Lord tomorrow as I go through this day. That I'd look at all the blessings God has given me instead of the tremendous loss.

I miss you Mom and I'll never forget you! I'll love you forever! ;(

LUKE IS ONE!

Today is my baby brother's first birthday! :) I know I don't usually post too much on siblings birthdays but it being his first I thought I'd at least update you all with a few photos. :) Luke has been such a blessing to everyone in the family. What a little bundle of joy he is. It's hard to believe he is one, but at the same time it seems like it's been FOREVER since we were at the hospital with him being born. I guess just so much has happened since then! :) I'm so thankful to God though he gave me Luke to be my brother. I just love him so much! Love you Luke!