Tuesday, August 11, 2009

August 14th...

This is one date that I hate very much. This was the date that marked the beginning of my changed life. Never again on this earth would my Mom live with NO cancer and who would have known that only 5 short months later she wouldn't even be with me any longer.

I'm trying really hard to not dwell on all of this because it seems foolish. My Mom is in Heaven and I have a wonderful loving family here with me, why be sad? But it doesn't work...I still get sad, I still miss her a LOT, and there are still even parts of me that long for her to be back. Just to be with her one more time.

I went back and reread the blog post I did last year at this time and it seems crazy to me even how much life has changed in this one year. The past 6 months life has been incredible. I love it! I have that same joy that I had when my Mom was alive. Okay, maybe not exactly the same because that hole is still somewhat there. How could it ever fully go away, but my heart HAS been restored to an extent and I'm so thankful to God that He has blessed me with some family that does love me unconditionally. It's like my Mom can't be here for me, but God's allowed someone else to come and fill that spot and I know my Mom would be so happy.

If any of you are interested in reading the other blog post I'll post the link to where I blogged at. It explains more of what I went through on this day. The pain and heartache and why I hate the 14th of August so much. Old blog post

Please be praying for me that I can look to the Lord tomorrow as I go through this day. That I'd look at all the blessings God has given me instead of the tremendous loss.

I miss you Mom and I'll never forget you! I'll love you forever! ;(


Lee family said...

I pray that God gave you peace and comfort for the day!
I feel very blessed to share just a little bit of the blessing your mom had.
Thank you Lord!
I am so thankful that we are a part of God's plan for you!
I look so forward to meeting your mom some day and thanking her.
love you,

theTwins said...

Praying for you and your family today. Love you.