Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Oh, what a day!

How should I say this...today was not the best day. I've always heard that cancer patients have good and bad days, and yes, that's true, but I believe the family members will also have good and bad days. No one has ever told me that part though. I've pretty much figured out that every other day is a "hard" day for me.

My mom woke up today pretty depressed. There was really nothing we could do to make her happy. We had to depend on the Lord. And he was good, he got her out of that mood and gave her joy. She did start having more trouble today talking though. She feels okay, her speech is just confused. We are praying that this will all go away. Seeing this happens, makes me think of all the bad memories, and it makes me lose faith. I have to just look down at my necklace and remember what Jesus said, "If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains." I'd love t have that faith!

I was really overwhelmed today with cooking. Before we were on this diet, I enjoyed cooking so much, it was actually fun to me. I guess because all of this is new, I'm just not used to it. And hopefully soon it will become something I enjoy to do and it will stop being a chore. I can't wait for that day! :)

My sister and grandparents came over tonight. It was nice to be able to visit with them, I always think how nice it would be if my sister lived at home with us. I'm praying though that she will change her life and surrender her will to the Lord.

Well, I guess that is all for now. Please pray that tomorrow is a good day!

Bye for now,

1 comment:

Celeste McGrath said...

When it's dark outside, the stars shine more brightly. When we feel overwhelmed, we can feel the Lord's help more clearly.

Thinking of you muchly!