Friday, October 10, 2008

Anxious

I'm sick and not even sure why....It is very uncommon for me to wake up at 6:00 with no alarm and this morning I did. I've just been laying in my bed and getting myself so worked up about little things. I don't know why I'm feeling so sick, I can't even pin point it to one things, seems like lots of things. I guess the biggest thing may be that I will possibly get my results today from the MRI.

Yesterday was one tough day. As you all knew I was scared about the MRI but on Wednesday I was feeling better about it and then even Thursday morning early I wasn't too scared. But it definitely hit me when I was driving to the hospital. :( I wasn't actually afraid of the MRI, but the results. I guess it may be hard for you all to understand. But knowing that when my Mom first got her MRI done she didn't know anything was wrong and then lived only 5 months after that first one. That is scary! I shouldn't be scared, but I am and was. Anyway, thank you to all those who were praying for me. My sister Tara ended up coming up to the hospital to be with me. I didn't do too good of a job at hiding how scared I was. :( I survived the MRI though and am now just waiting on results. I'm so hoping they come today only so I can get some sleep tonight. :)

Like I said though, I'm not really sure this is the reason why I'm so anxious. There is one other small tiny area that it could be, but who knows. Also, I'm flying to Oklahoma tonight so maybe I'm just super excited about that!! :)

I wanted to also let you all know my blood work came back. The doctor said that my thyroid count was within NORMAL range! :shock: It was certainly on the low end of normal, but still normal, so nothing to worry about there. The only problems with it were that I was really dehydrated and didn't have enough electrolytes in my body and then I also had too much calcium and potassium in my blood. That part didn't make sense to me at all. People have actually told me I should take calcium supplements because I don't drink milk and stuff, so who knows where all the calcium is coming from. :) The doctor ordered another blood test though, so when I'm home from OK, I'll have to get MORE blood work. :( That's okay though, I guess she just wants to make sure that my counts are high and if so then she'll do even MORE specific blood tests to find out why it is. She said it was nothing to worry about though, they weren't that high, just a little above normal. She was mostly worried about my electrolytes and of course me getting the MRI. She said since the blood work came up with no reason for me to be dizzy, the MRI was crucial. Maybe she said that to just worry me though......

I may or may not get my results today from the MRI, but whenever I do, I'll post it on here...Now if it's bad, I wont be posting for awhile probably. Not sure I'll feel up to blogging if they find tumors or something..but I'm trying hard to just trust the Lord that there will be NO tumors and my brain will be fine!!!

Thank you again for all the prayers!! It really means a lot to me!

5 comments:

Bethany said...

Praying for you Dannie-girl...

Can't wait to see you soon!

Love you so much,
Besh

Danielle said...

Thanks Besh!

Love you lots,
Dannie

Eliya said...

Php 4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
Php 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Php 4:8 Finally, brethren,
whatsoever things are true,
whatsoever things are honest,
whatsoever things are just,
whatsoever things are pure,
whatsoever things are lovely,
whatsoever things are of good report;
if there be any virtue, and
if there be any praise, think on these things.
Php 4:9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

Col 3:15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.

I have been praying for you a ton since I read your last post, Danielle. I am a friend of Bethany's and she told me about what a good friend you have been to her. Just this last week I have taken the time to read your blog from the beginning. Oh, how I cried reading about your Mom's illness (and her death)! It is WAAAAY too familiar. My mother is extremely ill. But she's been fighting it for about 15 years. She's been bed ridden much of the time and your story is very real to me. Thank God, I have never lost a loved one that close to me, so I can't begin to understand that part of your pain, but I do feel for you.

I also, have some health problems similar to what you are describing. One thing that has helped me (especially with the dizzyness) is chiropractic. The best kind is Upper Cervical. You can find more about it here: http://upcspine.com/ It's not in the least bit painful and can help a TON!

Rom 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I can tell you that is is HARD to see what good can come of hardships. But GOD DOES KNOW BEST!!! When I look back over the last 15 years, I can see a few of the things God has taught us through Mom's illness. God cares about us - the WHOLE us, not just our physical comfort - and often times he has to afflict us in our bodies to teach us the heavenly lesson that he wants us to learn. There are many lessons that I've learned through Mom's illness, that I am SURE I never would have learned if my life had been 'normal'.

Php 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

I will continue to pray for you Danielle and will ask him to give you the strength you need to go through this new trial.

Col 1:9 For this cause we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of his will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding;
Col 1:10 That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God;
Col 1:11 Strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness;
Col 1:12 Giving thanks unto the Father, which hath made us meet to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light:

1Pe 5:10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.

Hannah said...

You are much on my heart and mind, Danielle...I pray that the Lord will keep you in perfect peace. Praying for ya lots.

Love,
Hannah

Anonymous said...

Danielle~
I just left a comment on another of your posts... did they check your red blood counts to see if you are anemic? I was severely anemic and dehydrated.. and i got very dizzy and could barely walk but.. now that they figured out part of my problem was anemia.. iT IS VERY TREATABLE.
PRAYING FOR YOU OFTEN,
jODI