Scared...

Well, as some of you may know, (not many) but I have been having some weird health problems lately. I guess it's sort of been since the beginning of summer. I've just been SOO overally tired, even with hours and hours of sleep, and then also have been quite dizzy lately. I understand that being tired doesn't seem like a normal reason to see a doctor, but I'm telling you, I'm ALWAYS tired. So anyway...last week my dizzy problems got worse and I almost blacked out twice. :( That got me pretty scared and those who heard about it scared so I was convinced to go see a doctor this week before leaving for Oklahoma.

So, today was the big day. I went to the doctor and explained my symptoms and so she told me the dizziness can be from a virus. She said it lasts 5-7 days and then is gone. Since my is lasting longer than that and I had some numbness with it, she was thinking something else COULD be wrong...So, THEN she found out about my Mom and told me I should have an MRI on my brain. :( At the time of her telling me I wasn't scared..not at all, I just thought it was kind of foolish to get it done. But now, the later the day gets the more scared I'm getting. I don't want my family to know I'm scared though....I guess it just brings up a lot of memories of my Mom being sick and getting MRI after MRI done on her. I've had an MRI done once, but it was on my knee and so that's what else is scary. This is on my HEAD! Anyway, I am trying so hard to not let this scare me, and to not let my family know how scared I am. :( I was thinking though...what IF they found something? I've always said I want nothing more than to be with my Mom.... :( Maybe this is why I have no prospects for marriage or why my life is this way...none of us know how much longer we have to live. Just a lot to think about.

Anyway, they also drew a lot of blood today so I should find out by Thursday what's going on with that. She thinks it's just my thyroid, which I'm fine with, that's better than tumors. Praise the Lord too, because I didn't get woosy or pass out when they took my blood! This is the first time I felt good after getting it done and it was a HUGE needle! OH BOY! I'm so thankful though that it didn't hurt or anything.

Please just be praying for me though, I know I just need to trust God with this. My life is in HIS hands. Oh and if your Mandy or Tara reading this...just pretend you didn't.