Life can be hard...

Sometimes I wish that life could just freeze for a little while. That I could just step back from the situations around me and have time to think, pray and just fully comprehend what is going on around me. Life has been going so fast though that I feel lost in the midst of it. So many new things happening or coming up that I just don't know what to think of it all.

A very big thing that is going on right now is my health condition. I guess last I told all of you, my results came back good and I was feeling good, right? Well, I still technically am feeling good, if not better than before, but my blood work is not so good. :( That first time getting it drawn it came back saying that I was a little high in potassium and calcium but the concern was for my lack of fluids. I was very dehydrated. So, they asked me to drink a lot more water and then get more blood taken when I got home from OK. Soo...I did that. I drank a lot of water at the Naylors house and was just expecting my blood work to come back normal. So, I got home got more blood work last Thursday and then on Friday before leaving for IL, I got the call that my blood counts weren't so good. My calcium had gone up to 11, which is higher than normal, but not dangerous, but that my potassium was at a "dangerous" level. I couldnt' tell if it was something I should be worried about or not and she said, "well, it's not good. You could have a heart attack or kidney failure" She thought for sure that I must be taking a lot of potassium in my diet, but I'm not, so basically it's left unexplained for now. No one knows where all the potassium is coming from, but we have to get it under control. I am scheduled to get MORE blood drawn this Thursday and we'll go from there. My counts were at 5.6 and according to some websites, if your potassium level reaches 6.0 you should be hospitalized. (I don't plan on doing that) Along with my abnormal blood work I've also had some water retention, (just last night, but it scared me to death) My hand was like SOO puffy...Anyway, I called my doctor today and am waiting to hear back about that.

I guess just with all this going on it leaves me thinking a lot. Life is short...for some people 48 years while some only 3 years. Who knows how long we each have? I guess I'm just trying hard to trust God through all of this. Please pray for Mandy through all this also though. She is having a hard time with it. It's scary...I dont want to talk about it with her though, because it scares her almost as much as it scares me. Lord willing, nothing will be wrong though and maybe the blood tests were just messed up.

Another thing that has been on my mind SO much is my job. I'm currently working VERY hard to get my photography business up and going. Not only photography stuff though. I'm also trying to do more small editing jobs and DVD presentations for people and scanning work for others. John has helped me a lot with ideas, and the whole Naylor family actually. I just got some blank notecards printed with a pic I took on the front. And I'm going to try to sell packages of those at local shops. It's another area of trust for me. I want to be able to just have this one business but it takes a leap of faith to leave my job here and start doing just photo stuff. Also, I'm not totally sure it's God's will that I leave. If ANY of you have any idea to help me with this or have friends who need some sort of work done, please PLEASE think of me. :) I'm currently getting a website made and working on business cards.

Well, I had a lot more to write but due to other things I can't right now. Check back soon though to see photos from my trip to OK and to read about it! :)